http://scoundrelinwonderland.com Fucking With the Cheshire Cat Tue, 08 Jun 2010 07:22:21 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en Lately my dreams have mostly been revolving about my past. Sitting in the backyard of my childhood, as an adult, with family. Conversations with my mother about mundane things like, "Have you called your sister?" "I will, Mom, I promise." Banal banter until I realize that she's, in fact, dead; and we shouldn't ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1716 This is not who I thought I'd become. I really didn't. Does any of our plans, when we were playing on the school grounds, ever come true? I should be taller. More hair. Richer. I have my dream house in the Hollywood Hills already planned out. Throwing my head back in witty banter with ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1707 I could start this with, "Oh my back. My aching back!" Or how about, "That damned sciatica is throbbing. Must be rain on the way." No matter what it is, it's not descriptive enough of those moments when you feel, "I've hit an oil patch and I'm just skidding towards the grave." ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1703 The nature of my procrastination can only come from a place of genetics because there's no explicable reason why my motto is, "Put off today what you can do next week!" I mean, really, I have no idea as to the why I push things, events and essays away like rancid ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1693 What is it with famous men lately? I don't get it, really I don't. I mean, it's not so much that they are screwing around on their wives; it's that why do they think it'll remain private and that the press won't devour every lurid detail? It's the new "outing". A ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1677 What do you do when you're pissed off at someone? When you are there in their lives, helping them plot and scheme-only to find out you've been plotted and schemed against and then, only to find out you're the constant minor character in their drama, how do you break out ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1657 I'm tired. Exhaustion is just the surface of what I'm feeling. I've been delving into homework and I can't focus anymore. Research is melting into personal life, into minutia, and I'm somewhat overwhelmed. How much is too much? How much is not enough? I should have listened to my Mother and gone and ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1660 Has it really been since December 13, 2009 since I've contributed to this child? I feel like a neglectful parent. You know, the kind that Children's Aid has to come in because I've gone out clubbing ((not seal, mind you)) and left them alone with a bag of Oreo's in ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1648 I was chatting, as I am wont to do, on another chat home. It was a nice chat and that person on the other end of the internet spectrum suggested that I should continue to write on my blog. That's it's been far too long. And while I can't disagree with ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1635 You know those emails you get? You know, the ones that tell you - "You may worry about money but he can't afford a roof over his head," and then you see some poor man with no shoes and you think two things. 1- "Wow, I'm so lucky" 2- "Lucky bastard. He ... http://scoundrelinwonderland.com/?p=1631